twenty things ive learned in twenty years.

BONJOUR!

In honor of the impending day of doom, that is fast approaching (the day of my birth), i thought i would write a little something about the things, I've learned in the twenty years that i have somehow managed to stay on this tiny fucked up planet. I'm aware its not a lot, and i still have a whole LOT to learn and at some point, i have to become an actual functionally adult (terrifying i know, these are also some rules i feel that i need to live by.
so enjoy.

1. Listen libs, you are never really going to grow up, and you are fucking insane, but that's a good thing, well sometimes anyway.

2. Your never going to stop having a weird obsession,with The Simpsons its been your favourite programme for 15 years.

3. Amazingly the most unlikely of people, are the most supportive stop backing away from it.

4. stop telling yourself, you don't need help,or anyone because you do libs, adulthood is LONELY

5. It's okay to say no to people if it's making your mental health/physical health worse.

6. Your always going to suffer from mental health problems, but that's okay, it's okay to be sad sometimes, wallow in self pity, for a bit stop beating yourself up over it.

7. For the love of god Libby, stop being so hard, on yourself because other people don't believe in you, believe in yourself girl, you CAN do it, and you WILL!!

8. Stop trying to run away from everything that scares you, which is basically everything, no moving to New York, and changing your identity, no it won't probably solve everything, but still it might try it you never know.

9. Again you are one of the weirdest people in the world, you think your the funniest person ever (because i am obviously.)

10. Just because all of your past relationships, have been a pile of toxic shit doesn't mean their have to be in the future, stop pressuring yourself to move on and find someone because your terrified that one day, your gonna wake up aged 32 and be ALONE (basically you aren't gonna be Bridget Jones, or you might be who knows fuck it you will be fine.)

11. As cringe as this sounds,and i know you've rolled your eyes so far into the back of your head, you do need to care about yourself more like HONESTLY SELF CARE GIRL. You wanna go to Paris for a couple of days by yourself? Then go it's okay to enjoy your own company.

12. You don't have the parents in the world, one of them is worse than the other but they're both as equally as bad, as each other, but hey that's okay you can't make them into people their never will be, you know their try, their best in their own little fucked up way.

13. PLEASE start doing more things for you, even if it's the tiniest thing, you are important despite what you seem to tell yourself every day.

14. STOP CARING SO MUCH ABOUT OTHER PEOPLES,FEELINGS AND OPINIONS, PEOPLE WILL DO ANYTHING, TO PUT YOU DOWN, AND YOU'VE ALREADY HAD ENOUGH EMOTIONAL DAMAGE TO LAST YOU A LIFE TIME.

15. Oddly you are one of the most caring, and loyal people ever, you will do anything for anyone at the drop of a hat, and sometimes you need to not be that way, because people don't seem to appreciate you, until they want something.

16. It is okay to cut people out of your life, that don't contribute anything to your life, stop running back and feeling guilty, closure is overrated.

17.You dwell on the past too much, and think about the future, a whole lot more than you should, stop doing that and start actually living in the moment.

18. One day you will finish that book/screenplay/sitcom, and you will get to that place you want to get to, please stop rushing things.

19. I promise you one day, you will get out of the place you call home, and it will be the best thing you ever do and i know your scared, but you will be FINE.

20. Please, please,please remember that you are enough. You area 10/10 person on most days anyway,stop damping your worth because of other people's opinions,about you and how you should live your life, it is your life and their aren't happy with the way of their life, so they take it out on you. THIS ISN'T YOUR FAULT YOU ARE ENOUGH!!!